Loving someone can be amazing and exciting, the best thing in the world but it can also be horrible and self destructive, the worst thing in the world.
The idea that two people will meet, fall in love and spend the rest of their lives together is kind of crazy. Two people who have different opinions, life experiences and routines who are only together because something in their heart and mind tells them that they are connected to this other person.
I am a sucker for romance, love is fantastic and being an atheist I consider love to be the closest thing that I have to a religion but it aint a freaking walk in in the park.
Me and my boyfriend broke up for a few months last year, not because we didn’t love each other but because we simple couldn’t make it work. Instead of making each other happy we just became miserable and couldn’t change the destructive pattern that we had created. I was in shock for a few days and it was all so confusing because the love was still there but we needed time apart. I always thought that having your heart broken was just an expression but I could feel my heart break. My body and mind was filled with angst and my heart ached.
We got back together again and I know that we are meant to be, we have something special but it will never be easy. When you say I love you to someone you also say I will take care of you, I will support you and I will help you be the best of you.
I love Pascal and I will help him through tough times but I will never forget to love and support myself again.
Some of my favourite love songs:
If I were a carpenter- June Carter Cash and Johnny Cash
Someone like you- Adele
Love hurts- Emmylou Harris and Gram Parson
Happy Together- The Turtles
Ring of Fire- Johnny Cash
I’m sticking with you- Velvet Underground
Hope there’s someone- Antony and the Johnson